Ever since motherhood happened, I have been convincing myself to go with the flow.
I don’t want to start anything new because I might end up spending less time with the baby. I avoid going to the malls because the kid might get tired. I DONT feel like dressing up so much because anyway I am with a kid, who cares. I dont attend any of my after-office dinner/game/movie parties because I have got to be home by 5. I cant believe that in 3+ years of my office life here, I haven’t stayed in office past 5pm. I am least interested in making new friends, meeting people socially , except when its a playdate with an other kiddo family.
SO much that, I am sticking in the same job, at a meager salary just because it gives me the flexibility to cater to the kid’s school timings. An year back I even ended up applying for an MBA, was pretty serious. But was sick worried about how I will be able to manage office, school and the kid.
I think its time I start thinking about doing things that I enjoy. The kid will get used to it, I hope so. May be its not the kid, its just me, I have become so lazy and have been giving myself excuses NOT do start anything new. I need to start a hobby. Start a career. Start living a life. I need to think a lot more that whats gonna be on kid’s breakfast and lunch menu. I need to get out of my comfort zone and push myself.
“The biggest wall you got to climb is the one you have built in your mind”
World..through my eyes! 